One Confession!
Part of me wants to leave and just never look back. I am tired of trying to get people to care about me. I care so much for them, and yet I am only around when they NEED me. I am emotionally exhausted, tired of heartache, lies, and just completely selfish people.
Maybe then I would be happier? No one would know me, I could reinvent myself, and just…exist in a world where no one would just NEED me, they would want me in their lives. A nice fantasy it is though, right?
Two Pictures That Explain Your Life, Right Now. Why?
I am just really going through alot! I have no where to turn to talk to anyone. No one would understand so I just…keep it to myself.
Three Turn Ons!!!
Intelligence is very sexy to me.
Confidence is so so sexy to me as well.
Respect also is sexy and turns me on.
Of course the list goes on and on but I am limited to three, so these are the best three that are not even fetish or kink related.
What are your four major turn offs?
Poor hygiene!
Liars!
Not reciprocation!
Not being open about who you are, your wants, your needs, and feelings!
Five People I Care About The Most!
My Daughter – I would walk through hell for her.
My Mema – RIP
My Spouse – I love him with all of my soul
My Mother – Even if we dont always see eye to eye.
My Beeb – Who has become my best friend and
knows the dark corners of my soul.
Six Things You Wish You Have Never Done!
Accepted a drink from my ex at a party.
Thrown a knife at the wall during an
argument with my partner.
Moving out when I was 20 and not protecting my brother from my stepmom
Not picking up my adopted brother, only to later find out he was murdered three hours later.
Not keeping in touch with friends from my youth.
Not being there for my mother when she was ready to divorce my father and end her cycle of being abused.
Seven Things That Cross Your Mind, All The Time.
How to stop being in so much pain all the time.
Ways to be a better submissive!
Always looking for better ways to improve myself as a person in general.
If my animals are truly happy.
Why the people in the world just cant live peacefully?
Stupid songs that keep repeating in my head! I.E. Chicken Wing, Chicken Wing, Hot Dogs and Bologne, Chicken and Macaroni, CHILLING with my Homies!!!
All the million tasks and things I still need to do, and get done, but lack motivation for it!!! HELP!!!
Eight Ways to Get To My Heart!
Honesty – No matter how it might hurt.
Humor – If you make me laugh, you get in fast.
Food – Great Food – Tacos!!!
Chivalry – Male or Female – Chivalry is beautiful.
Be silly and adventurous with me.
Be Spontaneous and take me on an adventure!
Be willing to learn new things with me.
Make me feel important to you!
I complain about things a lot more.
I eat a lot more soup and vegetables.
I squint to read things on the screen
I seriously cannot hear anymore it seems and have to have people repeat things to me.
What came first, the chicken or the egg?
Hit me with your best shot! Though it would be this version:
Actually getting to be a kid and not being a parent to two little brothers and a little sister. It is no secret that I grew up in an abusive household but no one knew I had custody of my siblings at 18.
I am guilty of this. My brother got me this gift of wine bottles. An entire dozen of them, but…I had to pay an etra 75 dollars to get them delivered, and then came to learn that it was also a membership fee that I learned the next month of 150 dollars. The wine came and only 2 bottles were kinds I liked, so now I give out wine to people if they enjoy wines! I still have 9 left…HELP!
The federal reserve. I would hack them, take back OUR money and give it to those in need! Great thing I know NOTHING about hacking.
A. That we are Americans – Not anything else. Not white american, not asian american, not african american, mexican american, nothing of the sort. If you were BORN in America, YOU ARE American!
B. All of hollywood, sports, politicians, etc would be paid minimum wage, and our military would make the big bucks!
C. Our Healthcare would teach you how to protect against getting ill, with natural things, instead of giving you chemicals to fix an ailment that will return.
These are just off the top of my head, but I have a huge list.
Stupid ass celebrities! Whether it be sports, actors, singers, etc. You arent special just because you can catch a football, or breathe on a camera scene.
Patience. I seriously do not have any. So much so that it irritates me greatly!
Ten things you want to say to people right now!
This is my list of things I would say to so many people in my life. I did not include their names because that is not important. What is important is being able to list these things, and for me to understand what I do want to say to people.
